Christmas Eve..

I didn't have much to do today. I just woke up, ate, watch a little then went back to my room and face my laptop. I was just sitting, downloading, feelin' happy about today. I didn't even eat my lunch on time and I took a bath at 6pm. I just feel blessed even if I miss someone who is really far away from me.

These feeling that I have, to be honest, it's not that great even though I feel blessed. I don't feel that happy maybe because i'm missin' someone. I feel like I'm not "at home". I feel like there's something missing or rather I feel half empty. D'you know what makes me feel complete? ..... "the internet, my friends, eating, and watching".... I feel happy doing stuffs that''ll make me forget/get away from reality. It's funny because I just share my thoughts to myself, how? by thinking and simply saying it on my mind. *sigh* I also think that having no bf is a reason for me to feel sad and lonely because there is no warmth here in our home, no sweetness, but there is always laughter. haha.. I'm not that open when I'm at home but I'm open to my friends. Sharing to them takes away pain/sadness/emptiness. It's feels like another home but with love, sunshine, and everything. Anyway, I keep on telling myself that the major cause of my half emptiness is not being with that special someone, my mom. She flew to Singapore and worked there. Now, if I had a bf, would that change a thing? Nah, I don't think so. For me, having friends will do. 

(Okay, I'll stop here 'coz I'm getting bitter..hehe)

Anyway, let's all be happy, forget the hate, remove negative energies, and welcome Jesus on his birthday...

Merry Christmas!! ☺

something I made earlier for my facebook cover ... heehee.. just a rush